It's been two years today, Two years since my world stopped and my little one left this earth. I miss her as much today and I did then, I have been able to come to a sort of peace about her. I see her sister and how she is so full of life and personality and  I miss her. I miss the little firecracker that I never got to know. I know that she would be just as loving and fun as her sister. Our life would be more hectic but that much fuller .

She has been such a positive force in my life, Losing her taught me the importance of slowing down. Being thankful for the things that you have within your grasp. I like to think I've alowed this to make me a better person. A better mother, that is thankful for her children and loves on them with every chance. I know i'm not perfect by any means.

I'm thankful for my Sweet little one, for the time I was able to carry you and the few precious moments i got to hold you. I'm so thankful for you despite the hurt and the longing for you, if i knew i wouldn't get to keep you from the beginning I would carry you all the same.

Life

Life was supposed to slow down. It's only getting more hectic. The past 2 years have changed me in ways I would have never imagined. The depth of which I miss my daughter is profound. Starkly contrasting with the strength I have gained from the short time she was mine. How can something break you and make you all in the same time.

I have been blessed with 4 wonderful children, three that are with me and 1 that is not.

My big brother is the love of my life. I couldn't have asked for a better child. He is sweet and tender hearted. He is loving and kind and so vert joyful.

Big Sister ( twin a ) - lives in our hearts and in heaven

Sister ( Twin B) - Has more personality than I know what to do with. An infectious smile and a loving heart. Not to mention two hands that get into everything within reach

Baby Brother -Loves his mommy, He would prefer to by in my arms all day without ceasing. He is a sweet cuddly little boy -

I blessed with an amazing husband that will do anything in the world to make me happy he works hard so that I can stay home with our kids, which I love most days. =D This is our life, Musch different than I planned but it's my happy ever after