It's been two years today, Two years since my world stopped and my little one left this earth. I miss her as much today and I did then, I have been able to come to a sort of peace about her. I see her sister and how she is so full of life and personality and  I miss her. I miss the little firecracker that I never got to know. I know that she would be just as loving and fun as her sister. Our life would be more hectic but that much fuller .

She has been such a positive force in my life, Losing her taught me the importance of slowing down. Being thankful for the things that you have within your grasp. I like to think I've alowed this to make me a better person. A better mother, that is thankful for her children and loves on them with every chance. I know i'm not perfect by any means.

I'm thankful for my Sweet little one, for the time I was able to carry you and the few precious moments i got to hold you. I'm so thankful for you despite the hurt and the longing for you, if i knew i wouldn't get to keep you from the beginning I would carry you all the same.